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The Rowan

he sits beside me

the Rowan Tree

his name is Row

his princeman’s

Hrewgiann-Tawr

how ancient he is

and yet ageless

with long, white hair

on rock-hewn shoulders

how very ancient

he wears a hueless tunic

of ghostly patterns and shadows

images few can remember

his face is dull

as dust, some think

but his eyes are not so

lucid pinpoints of light

shine from lustrous blackness

under calm, watching

half-closed lids dark lashed

he bears a sword

plain it is but for runes

upon the long blade

it is dull as the night

in its worn steel and leather

it is naked, without scabbard

and sharp, though never touched

by whetstone or grind

only a spell stone

magic of air has keened the edge

Rowan is strong, strength incarnate

not with that of the brute

but of calculated touch

knowing of his own hands

and the wisdom is his blood

he knows of a few magicks

light and warmth to tell

but his mind he trusts most

and lifetimes over in wisdom

he is the Rowan Tree, it is enough

I saw him in a dream once

as now he did not speak

and to him neither did I a word endeavor

in respect

never would we desire such, in sooth

of blood he is granted

in ages of princes, some say

but he cares not, he is enough

warrior, runner of life

huntsman of the moon itself

he has no love, he is love

and well it is so, for he is lone

loneliness incarnate, to tell sooth

no man may find truer trust

no maid truer faith in him

he is always, yet seldom

invisible but with painful vividness

dark, dusty shadow with the halo

of starlight and firesparks

he is elusive and solid, the Rowan

and is my friend, to tell sooth

he is forever, for always

his eyes the light in my own

his voice mutely echoing my own

his essence behind my sword in fire

Flight

The musty undergrowth whips at my face as I bust through its barrier.  Almost voluntarily, the verdant brush parts before me and I am airborne, free of the forest, leaving its dark magnificence as I search for new sights.  My heart increases its timekeeping beat as my wings lift me on their golden tresses of feathers.  Small shrubs flash past as I skim the ground mere feet above its grassy covering.  Suddenly, the earth drops away and I soar over a man far below.  He raises his arms and stands, head high at the edge of a great chasm, crying aloud to the creator of this realm.  Now I feel the winds at my breast as I course over the tips of mountains.  Veering, I see in the distance the vast expanses of the forests.  The rush of the biting gales fears my presence, for in my flight I am strong, STRONG!  The symphony of my senses threatens to rend my soul with its puissance.  Through ancient canyons I speed with strength such as no creature has ever possessed. I plummet through the great stone gorges in which no human has ever set foot.  I see what gods alone have seen; miles upon miles of ancient forests, towering raw peaks, immense canyons.  The sky touches each with its flawless light as if to announce my presence, saying, “Here is one to behold your glory!” Past rivers of depths unmeasured I soar, sunlight gleaming from the very soul of the waters.  This is why I fly.  I exist only to reel in the vast earth’s radiant beauty.  And higher and further I cry n search of more lands, more life.

I Am

I am he who fights with the sword

Striking his foe for the love of his master

I am he who loves the scent of his horse

And the leather and dust as he traverses old worn trails

I am he who revels in standing at a cliff’s edge

Feeling the oceans’ spray and hearing the wind’s song

For he who cries out at the sight of the great mountains

And vast plains, I am their beauty and glory.

I am the one who weeps for he has lost his sight

And cannot behold that which I have created.

I am the one who cannot see yet weeps for he can feel

The bite of cold waters, the warmth of spring’s breeze

I am the father who cries for he has lost his son.

I am the father who laughs for in losing his son he has regained his lost love.

I am you, yet you still do not understand.  I have felt what you feel, for to instill the marvel in you, I must first marvel myself

I am, yet I cannot understand why you do not want me.

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This is an old poem. I wrote it when I was 18 (that would be 1992) during the last hours of my search for the resolution between my commitment to Christianity and the world. The world won that battle ultimately, and it would be a decade before the Lord saw fit to bring me to his flock. I had no real understanding of what the real relationship with the Creator of the universe should be, but I think it is apparent that I was trying to reconcile what I knew to what I wanted to know and be. Already, the pull of mysticism and pagan ideas was heavy and nigh irresistible.

Ruth

The light grows closer

yet its powers’ dark

side cannot touch her

all along, the stark

images others create

condemn her

I talked to the one

of whom I now speak

she sees their dark tones

and to me did sneak

smiles through the black phone

begone, thoughts presown

I laughed aloud

she thought it was her

little joke just now

an unheard whisper

to her do I avow

“that and much more, now.”

Inspiration

As the dancer spins

The time is passing

Soon there will be nothing

And the dancer’s strength thins.

His arms lithely flow

He springs into the air

And, though the time is no longer there,

He moves slower than falling snow.

For a long, drawn moment

His wavering shadow lingers.

He dances on despite time’s fingers

Then it is gone, with all the dance meant.

Revealings

From a burning cliff’s edge

A bird flew from a hedge

Its call was of the purest sapphire

Its flight truer than the sun’s fire

In the fading sunset haze

The clouds catch the crimson blaze

And the sea is aflame

As the whole earth hears the name

With a livid dragon’s roar

The name comes before

And all who hear the call

Are rent to their souls and fall

Then a soaring hand will shatter

The glass of the skies’ boundaries scatter

Forth will come a host so great

The might of the universe will know its fate

Hence will come a cry for the element

Never again to be a gift freely sent

Instead, at last, is the great reward

As the host flourishes, grows and marches forward

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Another poem from 1991-1992. It was an attempt to capture the grandeur of the hosts of the Lord. Unfortunately it has little more than a rough picture of the return of Christ for I didn’t get much more out of the idea of Revelation and the Second Coming than what one might draw from a glamorous movie. It lacks God in all his glory.

The Black Knight

He rode fierce as the fiery gale

That in his wake blew a cruel and biting wail

Through desert and marsh, through forest and plain

The rider needed no rest, felt no pain

But to peer close past the cold hard eyes

Was to see pain to cause even death to cry

His steed was of a flawless white

Having wisdom and swiftness to make true might

His sword was of light to cause eyes to reel

Crafted of ancient silver and fine steel

His cloak enveloped the vast fading day

And shone with night’s dark, the moon’s soft ray

Vicious foes suddenly sought him

In ruins decaying and shadows dim

He knew his role and to devils he charged toward

Reaching for the familiar hilt of his sword

Light, pure as a gem, swung and slashed with ice

As white kicked and thrashed, knowing death’s price.

Crimson stained the dark and foes froze

For a rending cry shredded the night’s cold glow

Turning from pain to anger, steel’s flight sped

Instilling fear as from fear the cry fled

His blade was of long tried deadly biting steel

That, with the wound, now of its own seemed to wield

Death fell as rain to the cold stone

Such was the passing of hours without even song

Each time would the warrior cleanse his soiled blade

Then stride to his mount without a word said

In his wake there remained the icy chill

As his still warm foes lay deathly still

Unending nights questioning why

Why this quest and when would there be time to die?

Hours and days and nights too soon became years

Filled with racing and wounds, laced with tears

Cursed to cruelly kill his foe by right

The dark warrior was forced to kneel to his plight

At last the final day had come

“your cruel test of worth, my child, is now full done.”

The father wept and raised his arms high

With them the glittering crown toward the sky

A multitude cried out to their newborn king

The knights pledged life, bards drew harps to sing

Upon golden stone did darkest stone test

And upon the darkness did gold circlet rest

Years passed by and the darkness weakened

Sparkling metal to dullness gave way

A life must be renewed, a power retaken

Or death of another chill would come to play

Cold stone withered and metal shivered

Old power waned as its sword dulled and grayed

Where was the land, fresh in the morn?

Combat’s heady surge, bringing strength reborn

Life he’d lost to gain the circlet

When in his strong hands he’d held the gauntlet

Up darkness rose, crying aloud

He ran from the stone through a great, fearful crowd

He escaped the pain of death’s cold shroud

Catching up his ancient blade as courtiers howled

Through the great old hall and courtyard he passed

Finding old strength, each step ever more fast

At the gate, the long drawn seconds he counted

In the new black night that stars surrounded

To the grey cliffs he furiously spurred

Not a sound but the thundering courser was heard

The dark mist lay on the ground deep and thick

And time itself stood still through some strange trick

The dark lord flew onward, racing wind

Until the woods’ growth began to thin

Finally, at the cliffs’ edge he stood

And threw off his heavy cloak and hood

From his great and fierce brow he slowly drew

The proud golden crown he so well knew

From ancient caverns had it been hewn

And back to those vast depths it flew

A cry of freedom rose from his tongue

Until through the realm and far lands beyond ‘twas sung

Pointing his great steed to places known last

The ancient familiar course of times past

The dark knight of ages long before

Was at last great dark knight once more

The taste of sweat, the wind and of blood

The smell of smoke were so well known in battle’s flood

Through desert and marshes, through forest and plains,

Forgotten radiance shone, shimmering as rain

Wind coursed his racing wake through

Catching up the cry it too knew

Yet this knight no longer knew sorrow

As he rode swiftly by honored barrow

Never this time, he vowed

To mourn the great mission he once more owed

Never for the gift again bestowed

To ride the realms, to taste the wind

To feel the rain and to live, to live…again

The Master And The Song

The sun is gone, leaving a blazing path of iridescent clouds in its crawling wake.  The moon stirs her lonely fingers of light, stretching them to play amongst the trees.  Stars join the sky, weaving their own flames, creating a cloak of loose blue light that folds itself about the moon gently.  Still waters are warmed by the cloak and mist is born, spirits of gray silk caress the shores.  The mountains rise up to touch the brilliant black sky, their crags and cliffs catching the faint rays of light and they become brothers to the hovering mists.  The grass whispers to the brush, beckoning for them to join in a chant, and the birds begin. 

Far away, a spirit sits in shadow.  It is surrounded by another music.  One of Its own making, of words and a voice of purest crystal.  Its eyes are emeralds, Its fingers lucid rivers of sapphires.  The spirit hears the light, feels the world’s song, and weaves Its music with the surrounding realm.  It dreams.  The night feeds It with energy more potent than fire, yet more silent and lonely than the wind.  The dreaming is of a treasure.  Not one of the gems that are the spirit’s own soul, but of another dream It shall soon make real.  And the music begins to cry out for the spirit leads it. 

Strange bonds, forged by time and presence, have meshed the two together: Master and the Song.

Trista

Set sail the ship

of pale white bones

Wraith upon the sea

her sails misty tatters

Her crew the cries

of her ancient timbers

Her cargo the wind

that blows her course

Set sail

the great bronze knell has rung

For the ends

of the earth’s dark seas

Long and cold sleep

shall be the passage

Silent and without

a ripple at her prow.

The One With Pearl-White Words

So come to us

With open hands

For you know how to fly.

Please, teach us to stand.

We know you are a freeman

And we are but slaves.

We have spent a lifetime of this,

To learn we are the fool that raves.

You, the naked wanderer,

The one with pearl-white words.

Take us in to follow you,

Relieve us of our swords.

The world itself came to you

When it was so young

And molded close around your spirit,

Its breath filled your lungs.

So come to us

With open hands

For you know how to fly.

Please, teach us to stand.

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Yet another from 1991-1992. This was all about my final cry to God, in a lonely barracks room in Washington at my first command. I was in the darkest of times, reading the Bible, praying for resolution of my quandary. The Lord saw fit not to bring me to him then. I’m still not entirely sure, though I know he was, and all things worked together for the good and I was called to his Name in due time. This poem is deceptive and it really describes my desire to “get” the gist of true faith and salvation, to understand and receive the gospel. O that I could have understood the Message back then, that my knowledge was one unto salvation. But I don’t regret it so much as remember the sadness. Wrestling with the Scripture and the incredible pull toward witchcraft left me nearly undone even then.

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